Most of you moms will agree that we all sometimes get the feeling of loneliness seeing our kids grow. If only we could bottle all their toothless grin, newborn scent and innocence, then there will be a room full of priceless possessions.

Well, this morning I had this feeling. Looking at my kids, I've felt a sudden squeeze somewhere within. If only I can extend a year of their growth to 5 years, then I may have some more time to watch them like this. I want time to move slower so that I can have ample time to snuggle with them, or at least make up for the times I was not there.

Luckily, being a full time mother and a full time online worker, I was blessed to witness all the memorable firsts of my kids. I was able to document each and everyone of them. But as of now, I don't have enough courage to look at them. They only magnify the fact that my kids are growing too fast and soon everything will be memories. I know there will be a lot more memories to collect. I have plenty of room to accommodate them all. Maybe in a decade or two, I will be able to look at them and cherish all the memories... but not now, not yet.

So I had this feeling for a couple of day now. I'm not sure if I'm just being paranoid of everything that is happening around us. I mean the killer earthquake and tsunami in Japan, and all the war that is being born in different countries, it makes me wonder if we're getting really near the final days.

Being a mother of 3, I'm afraid for my kids. You know, I'm morbid at times. I keep on imagining things happening and seeing ourselves in that situation. I know it's not healthy but it is one way of making me think possible survival strategies that may save me and my family. Actually, I'm done with my survival kit list, and I'm ready to buy them. It gives me a sense security to know that I have all the things necessary to survive just in case calamities happen.

I remember 3 years ago when our place was hit by typhoon Frank. We're not prepared during that time. We have no medicine, ointments, foods and water. It was a nightmare to all of us. I don't want that to happen again. So, now I'm making myself more aware and ready with all the possibilities.

Here is my survival kit content and hopefully it will help you in packing yours:

-1 bottle of alcohol
-Betadine
-Sterilize gauge pad
-Scissor
-medicines for fever, cough, colds, diarrhea, and antibioic.
-Ointment for burns
-Anti-fungal cream
-Drinking water
-Ready to eat canned goods
-Biscuits
-chocolate candy bars
-Blanket and Extra Clothes
-Flashlight
-Swiss knife
-Batteries
-Can Opener
-Transistor radio
-Matches and Candles

If you have kids like me, your survival kit should also include:

-Diapers
-Medicine suited for the age of the child
-Wet Tissues
-Clothes (5 to 10 pairs)
-Blanket
-Ready to eat baby foods and biscuits
-Drinking water and formula milk
-Some small toys to ease to help your child stay calm

I am a mellow dramatic person
I cry with little or no reason at all
I am hopeless romantic

Looking at my kids while they're sleeping
I can't help but ask
What good have I done
to deserve something as wonderful as them

I know I'm not a perfect mom
never been a perfect wife
nor daughter to my mom
But I'll never stop striving to be the best
I could be
Just to be worthy of them

I had my share of naughtiness
and craziness
and everything that comes in between

My life is not grand
I have nothing much to offer
I have loved and been lost
I once dream and failed
forgive and forget

I could have been much better
if only I did the right thing
But believe me
I was never been so thankful
with the life I have now

Yes, time flies really fast!
In a blink of an eye, she's two months already.

It's a mix feeling honestly.

She's growing too fast and I'm afraid that I'll miss her being this small...


and cute...


When she's older, I really gonna miss this.


Anyway, we celebrated her birthday as usual with my mom cooking. I'm gonna miss this as Mom will be leaving soon.

Anyway, here are the birthday pics of our birthday girl.


Baby Snow White with the frog prince



Snow White with my mom and dad, Pretty Ariel, Sweet Cinderella and her Ninong Buchoy

I've heard a lot of comments regarding my decision to celebrate Sweet Cinderella's Birthday at Jollibee. We could have saved money if we spent it in our house. I myself felt the same. Of course gastos (expenses) is much smaller if we just cooked in our house and do all the stuff. But I also know that it is so nakakapagod (tiring) and not to mention stressful.

But that is not my main concern. It would be fine with me no matter how tiring it could be, as long as I know my kids are enjoying it. But Sweet Cinderella wanted it badly to celebrate her birthday at Jollibee. Although I know she would not contest if I tell her to just celebrate it in our house, since she knows that I just gave birth and we have no money, hehehe. I told it already in one of  my previous posts. I have heard several times from her that someday she wants to spend her birthday at Jollibee like her ate. (older sister)

As a mom, if I could, I would grant every wish they have in their tiny hearts.

Seeing this smile...